Remember back in your younger days when you got the chance to witness childhood fights? The ones where the loud, obnoxious, attention seeking kid decides to pick on the quiet and meek kid and that quiet kid ends up embarrassing the other one by winning the fight. Yep, that is the depiction of 2020 for me.
Just like everyone else, I was going around telling everyone 2020 was going to be a year of clear vision. I even made a few Facebook and Instagram posts promoting the fact. It’s crazy as I think back to the beginning of the year; I really had no clue how eye opening the year was going to be.
If you go around and ask other people what they think about 2020 most will give a negative connotation and explain how it was the worst year they have ever lived in their lives. I mean, there is even a Match.com commercial illustrating 2020 as a woman being matched with Satan. I, however, have to disagree. I want to share four essential things I learned that changed my perspective while being entangled in the chaos of 2020.SLOW DOWN!!!
The Lord answered her “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but few things are necessary.” ~ Luke 10:41-42
This year has revealed to me just how disordered my life has been. I have been living like a hamster on a wheel and not giving myself time to reflect on things I’ve been through and learned from. 2020 has made me realize how important work-life balance is. I have discovered the importance of spending time and having relationships with family and friends. I have gotten to really get to know myself as well as get to know others on a deeper level. I know a bunch of other people can relate to this according to National Law Review’s article on the divorce rate this year. There was a significant increase by 34% and that was only through April. Slowing down gives you the ability to process and access friendships, relationships, and decisions versus constantly moving, ignoring, and living impulsively. The most important thing about slowing down is the fact that it’s where God’s voice is amplified. He dwells in silence, solitude, and stillness. If we never learn to dwell there with Him how do expect to know His will and direction for our lives?
LEAN NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6
I have done a complete 180 this year. For all who don’t know, I was previously a tarot card reader and was really deep into occult practices. You know, doing things like candle magic, spells, and praying to crystals, the sun and moon, and such. All in the reason of trying to understand the meaning of life. All glory to God for knowing my heart and giving me the divine encounter I needed to turn my life around and to get my life aligned with His kingdom agenda. I learned that it is okay to not know every step of the way. I don’t need to know every direction my life is going to take because if I did then I probably would be too afraid to move. I have learned that surrendering my will to His is going to be more beneficial than trying to figure it out on my own. Since making the change I’ve got my desire back to write which I’ve loved to do since I was a child, I’m getting pretty good at painting my own nails, on top of the many gains in my personal and financial life that listing them would make this post even longer than what it already is.
KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE PRIZE
He said “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord save me.” Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” ~ Matthew 14:29-31
I have to admit that when I was trying to do things on my own will I had no idea what I was doing or who to consult when I needed to. I started to develop Imposter Syndrome. I felt like a failure in every aspect of life. I was sinking bad. Surrendering fully to Christ in 2020 and keeping my focus on building our relationship has blessed me in so many ways both internally and externally. I have learned that with doing so I don’t have to worry about what is going on around me. God has a plan for me and with patience I will get to where He sees fit, how He sees fit, and it will be when He knows the time is right.
BLACK IS NOT KING….JESUS IS
“No one can serve two masters, since either he will hate one and love the other, or he will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.” ~ Matthew 6:24
Chile, this was a big one for me. Beyoncé almost had me fooled. I probably will get some push back for this one but I stand on what I believe. In this current climate you will have to be spiritually blind to not see that separation is being put on full display at an all time high. Granted, I am more than proud of the fact that I am a black woman. There is a big difference between being proud and being obsessive though. Before this year I was deeply into the black empowerment movement. However, 2020 has revealed to me that the powers that be have hijacked that movement and turned it into some type of agenda to control the masses during this time of uncertainty. You may not believe it and I won’t go into detail here to try to prove this point. Just know if you have never seen a house divided falling apart reflect on the current state of the world in 2020. The unfortunate events of 2020 have proven to me that we all go through things and, no matter what the scale of it all is, we need to focus on the importance of supporting one another and not comparing each other’s losses. My skin color is not making sure my family is stable mentally and physically. My skin color is not making sure the effects of the pandemic stays away from my family and me. These are only taken care of by the grace of God through Jesus Christ. Giving praise to anyone or anything else, including skin color, is IDOLATRY.
As you can see I was given exactly what I asked for at the beginning of this year, a clearer vision. I was only focused on it being in a financial or career aspect to be honest but I’m more than thankful that God knew it needed to be in all areas of life. I can’t wait to see the growth from all of this year’s revelations. I pray you have been blessed in similar ways this year. Let me know in the comments below any enlightening things you’ve learned this year.