First and foremost I want to start by saying my prayers for healing and comfort goes out to the family of DMX. I know how hard it is to watch a family member battle with on again and off again substance abuse and it really hurts my heart to watch other people go through the same situation and take losses from it.
When media began to release information about DMX overdosing and being hospitalized in grave conditions, there was a clip of an interview he did with another known rapper by the name of Talib Kwali. In this clip, you see DMX struggle to get out the story of how he was 14 years old when he had his first encounter with crack unbeknownst to him through a man he looked up to and trusted. It was very heart wrenching to watch him try to fight back the tears while trying to share his story.
It also was difficult for me to watch because I have been involved in a similar situation in my past. A guy that I had previously dated laced some marijuana without informing me and I had a bad reaction to whatever it was. It wasn’t bad enough to warrant a hospital visit but I had to be monitored the whole night to make sure. We all have certain demons we have had a hard time fighting off and like DMX, addiction was one of mine. Although crack was not my addiction of choice, I definitely can relate to the daily struggle of fighting the urge to give into temptation and go back to smoking marijuana and occasionally taking pills.
Thank God for Jesus because now I am able to overcome the temptation daily by the strength of His covering and today I want to explain to you three revelations God gave me as to why I needed to turn away from substance abuse.
Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour1 Peter 5:8
First revelation being that everything is now more advanced, drugs included, so now it is hard to actually know what chemicals are being mixed together in order for a more intense feeling to occur. As I stated before, DMX told his story about his mentor lacing his marijuana with crack cocaine and that is what sparked his addiction. I also have a similar story of when someone laced some marijuana and didn’t inform me and I had a bad reaction to it. Thank God it wasn’t bad enough to be hospitalized but things could have easily been worse. It was definitely an eye opening experience for me and could honestly happen to anyone who indulges.
I never knew exactly what I was putting in my body. I didn’t really care at the time due to lack of confidence and wanting to relate to the crowd of people I had around me. However, now that I have presented my body as a living sacrifice holy and pleasing to God, I try my hardest to stay fully aware of what I intake and the decisions I make regarding my body.
Likewise, urge the younger men to be self-controlledTitus 2:6
The second revelation I received was how most times when I was under the influence, I would always make poor decisions. I made a bunch of life decisions that deterred and distracted me and that could have been avoided had I not been under the influence. Shout out to Apostle Brian Meadows who explained it more clearly for me. Through his teachings I learned that smoking marijuana weakens strong will. You may not agree with doing something or may not agree with what someone says but then as you raise your conscientiousness you begin to be in agreement with things you strongly were against. It’s the same reason why men try to continue to buy drinks for women in the club. A woman may say no to a man at first but after a drink or two, her will is lower than before and she begins to loosen up and agree to whatever the man is offering.
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers of this darkness, against evil, spiritual forces in the heavens. For this reason take up the full armor of God, so that you may be able to resist in the evil day, and having prepared everything, to take your stand.Romans 6:12-13
The final revelation I have to share is that being under the influence makes it harder to decipher the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Anything done that heightens your consciousness is spiritual activity. Intense emotions, smoking, drinking, and etc. all contribute to raising your consciousness and opening you up to all types of spiritual activity. With engaging in any of these actions you begin to hear a cluster of suggestions because you are in a heightened state of being. That is why people feel they are the most creative when they are under the influence.You are receiving all types of inputs to see which one you are going to agree with. That is also one of the key reasons alcohol is called spirits. It all opens you up spiritually and since your will is already weakened it makes it easier for the evil spirits to sway you into agreeing with them and doing what they are wanting you to do.
It could be something as simple as you having a thought that someone needs to pay for betraying you. In a sober state you could quickly combat the thought with a scripture affirming that God sees all and will fight the battle for you because it’s not your battle to fight but His, however, being under the influence you may have that same thought from the enemy and with lowered will you start to agree and think, “Hmm maybe I should go break their windows and slash their tires and so on so forth. It is the revelation that I could receive a variety of spiritual activity from spirits that are trying to get me to be in agreement with how they wanted me to be, which continuously keeps me from falling back into my old ways.
With deciding to remain sober I am able to be more secure in knowing that I am being led by the Holy Spirit and not one of Satan’s minions. I am able to stand firm in my will and make my no mean no and my yes mean yes. I am able to stand firm in how I believe the Holy Spirit is guiding me instead of being burdened with confusion and not being 100% certain in the decisions I make and later regretting it. I pray this has planted a seed for you to think about the reasons why you may be using a substance and the consequences of doing so.
BLESSINGS TO YOU ALL ❤️