Being in the current cycle of the unknown is something I don’t know if I will ever get used to. Not knowing where I’m going in life or what God has planned for me weighs heavy. Not knowing what I want to do and where I want to go leaves me with no motivation to do anything because I don’t know what goals I want to set for myself which ultimately leads me into a state of depression and anxiety. However, I have learned that mentally remaining present or being focused on the present moment has gravely worked in my favor in this battle to defeat depression and anxiety.
Depression and anxiety used to sneak up on me. I usually didn’t even realize I was in a depressive state until I came out of it. And it was just a few years ago when I found out that I deal with anxiety. I had so much of it that I thought it was just how I was wired.
Now that I am familiar with the word of God and I’m learning how to utilize the promises provided, I am now able to see the depression and anxiety, tackle it head on, and take the appropriate steps needed to get back to the peace that surpasses all understanding.
Because the LORD’s faithful love we do not perish, for his mercies never end. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness
In the past my depression derived from being stuck on a “past” mindset for me. I know that when I am in a depressive state that I am usually dwelling on past decisions I’ve made that can not be changed or a situation that happened in the past that I could not control so I sit and sulk in the what if’s and what should be’s. Now that Christ is my homeboy,
I am confident in knowing that I am forgiven and that His mercies are never ending. Every day I am blessed to open my eyes is a new chance to be better than I was yesterday and focus on what I can do that day that will impact my days in the future.
I chose you before I formed you in the womb; I set you apart before you were born. I appointed you a prophet to the nations.
Anxiety was a hard one I had to come into grips with. The worries stemming from the unknown of how my future will pan out has always overwhelmed me because I am a creature of detail. Don’t get me wrong, I love occasionally doing spontaneous things, however, when it comes to my life and providing for my family I feel more secure in knowing everything is going to fall into place.
For I know the plans I have for you” – this is the LORD’s declaration – “plans for your well-being, not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
So now when I’m in doubt or start to feel fearful or worried about my future I lean on Jeremiah 29:11 and Jeremiah 1:5. The Lord has a plan for me because He wouldn’t have placed me on this earth if He didn’t have an assignment for me to accomplish while being here. I had to realize that it all comes down to this…… EITHER YOU TRUST HIM OR YOU DON’T!
And, whenever I start feeling anxiety about my purpose and what I should be doing I refer back to the whole book of Matthew which drops gem after gem on how living for Christ, being Christ-like, and encouraging others to do the same is my main purpose and God will reveal the rest in due time.
But seek first the kingdom of God and all His righteousness, and all these things will be provided for you. Therefore don’t worry about tomorrow because tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6: 33-34